Good morning! My name is Amy. I am 35 and live in Iowa. I am a wife, mom of 2 kids ages 5 and 8, a nurse, a daughter, sister and friend. January 1st I watched Fat Sick and Nearly Dead for the second time. I thought to myself I’m fatigued, irritable, depressed and overweight. What’s next….. I know well enough that what you put in you body effects every aspect of your life. A couple days later I saw a quote reading “I can’t help someone not willing to help themselves….including me” What more was I waiting for? I mean come on!
So, I ordered a juicer and waited. The night it came in I went straight to the store and bought a bunch of kale, spinach, parley, lemons, oranges, apples, carrots – well, you get the idea. I came home, made a juice (after eating a slice of pizza) and decided the next morning I would start a 3 day juice fast. No pop, no coffee, no solid food, just fresh veggie and fruit juices for 3 days. I would see how it goes…. After all Joe Cross did it for 60 days in the movie and it totally transformed his life. I could do 3.
Sunday, day 3 came around and I had done it! I was tired, edgy, and hungry, but I felt gooood. (if that makes any sense) I slept well, I hadn’t snored that night, it was clear to me I wasn’t going to die from not eating (even though for some minutes I wondered – LOL). I watched it again – Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead. I decided in my mind I would try for 10 days, then I said it out loud and was committed to it. 10 days – not forever. Why not? I have a cousin who introduced me to the idea of juicing and she was totally hooked! Never felt better. What made me so special that I couldn’t’ at least try. I started telling my family and close friends. Now I was really committed. If I quit everybody I knew would know I failed. No pressure there right?
Today is day 6. I have officially doubled my first goal. I haven’t liked every minute. I actually wondered if I wouldn’t finish this fast in jail for assaulting someone because I was so frickin irritable at times! But I have sustained energy like never before, I haven’t taken any allergy meds for 3 days, haven’t snored for 4 nights now, and every once in a while I get this rush for no good reason other than my body is feelin good baby!
If you don’t know much about juice detox, or a re-boot, the main enticing feature to me is that you take in micronutrients that aren’t just healthy for your body, it actually cleans your cells and fine tunes your machine. Its amazing. Your body can function with sluggish cells but it is taken to a whole new level when its fed the proper nutrients.
I love food. I actually have a love hate relationship with food. It comforts me but then it just purely pisses me off. It is a habit, a pacifier, mood stabilizer, my eternal companion that is slowly killing me. Food isn’t what birthdays are about, what defines the holidays, what vacations are for, or how we go out and socialize with friends – or is it? Don’t some foods trigger memories for you? Trigger emotions? Wouldn’t thanksgiving not be thanksgiving without turkey and stuffing? And the ever popular birthday dinner always celebrated in our home – its the ritual that surrounds opening presents that day! (and whats a birthday without cake?)
One word. Control. I’d lost it like I’d lost my marbles. So I’m juicing! I’m taking back some sense of well being and control. I’ve had headaches from no caffeine, I’ve been so hungry my stomach hurt, I’ve been light headed, my skin smells like veggies, and there is some strange film in my mouth from the detox that I have been assured is normal. BUT I have a clear mind, I have clear lungs, I am at some sort of peace knowing I have made it this far. I have lost 13 lbs. And for all the odd and annoying side effects from fasting, I can’t bring myself to stop yet.
Sunday night I’m gonna sit down and have a small meal with my family and I’m really looking forward to that. That is just the beginning of a new start. I will do my best to be healthier. I will eat, but will still do a green juice every day for the nutrients. I will make better decisions and be a good example for my kids, my friends and family, and my patients. It won’t be perfect. But I will try.
Its so hard to see so many of my patients in the hospital, and even some close to me who’s lives would be totally different if they just took control of their diet and lifestyle. Instead they are on medication. And to treat the side effects of those meds they are on more meds. They miss work, time with their families, vacations, gatherings with friends because they are ill. I am not going to end up like that.
Control, and clarity Not perfection- and forgiveness when I am re-focusing my goals instead of beating myself up.
The rest is still unwritten. I’m reaching for the distance, hoping you will join me on my journey.